I think I should be on letter N by now. Oops.
I am continuing with the process of cleaning and purging. It's getting done, but somehow feels like an exercise in futility. Even after hours and hours of work, it feels like nothing gets accomplished. Life feels very gray. Not bad, but not good either. Just blah. Of course there's going to be peaks and valleys in everyone's existence. This too shall pass. Insert whatever other hackneyed phrase in here that fits. At least I have a goal. If I continue at the rate I'm going, I think I can be in California by July, or even June. This will be worth it.
In some ways, I feel like I'm losing my way. I don't know if that's true, or if all of this change is making my uncomfortable. But I need to shed the past to get on with the future. I don't think you can truly evolve if you desperately cling to memories.
Part of why I've avoided updating (other than procrastination and actual busy work) is that I'm just in a weird headspace. I'm sorting through a lot of things in my head, and it's hard to write them out.
Doing this challenge is making me think about what I want this blog to be. I don't really want to keep a "personal" blog for the world to see (or more accurately, whoever might happen upon it). But then when I do posts about topics, I feel self-conscious and feel like I sound like a know-it-all. I assume people know that this is just my blog, and I'm just expressing my opinions/what works for me, but I don't know. I used to take a lot of pride in my writing skills, but I am seriously rusty. I have the thoughts, but the words don't want to transfer to the screen.
I am continuing with the process of cleaning and purging. It's getting done, but somehow feels like an exercise in futility. Even after hours and hours of work, it feels like nothing gets accomplished. Life feels very gray. Not bad, but not good either. Just blah. Of course there's going to be peaks and valleys in everyone's existence. This too shall pass. Insert whatever other hackneyed phrase in here that fits. At least I have a goal. If I continue at the rate I'm going, I think I can be in California by July, or even June. This will be worth it.
In some ways, I feel like I'm losing my way. I don't know if that's true, or if all of this change is making my uncomfortable. But I need to shed the past to get on with the future. I don't think you can truly evolve if you desperately cling to memories.
Part of why I've avoided updating (other than procrastination and actual busy work) is that I'm just in a weird headspace. I'm sorting through a lot of things in my head, and it's hard to write them out.
Doing this challenge is making me think about what I want this blog to be. I don't really want to keep a "personal" blog for the world to see (or more accurately, whoever might happen upon it). But then when I do posts about topics, I feel self-conscious and feel like I sound like a know-it-all. I assume people know that this is just my blog, and I'm just expressing my opinions/what works for me, but I don't know. I used to take a lot of pride in my writing skills, but I am seriously rusty. I have the thoughts, but the words don't want to transfer to the screen.
haha, me too me too! but what makes me successfully posting is i try to write on notepad first, thousand times edit, and voila... posted! Keep posting Alisa, the world awaits your story ;)
ReplyDeletexo Mezo from Jakarta, Indonesia
Actually, we're up to "q" today, but who cares. It's so fun meeting all these different bloggers from alloverthe world. Nice to "meet" you.
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